What do you really want? There may be lots of things you want, but if you had to pick only those things that you want that would bring you closer to being You, what would these things be?
Last night I wrote in my journal addressing My Guardian Angel, my passed over grandparents, God, and the angels in general. It was a general pleading to anyone who would listen and help. I asked for guidance on finding my mojo again in relation to eating healthily again. In the last few weeks I’ve started my bad habits again, have been craving sweets, not eating salads or preparing healthy meals, and have felt like I’ve had no control. When I lose my mojo (I’ve started to realise now) I start to feel like it’s out of my control and the universe is doing this to me and oh life is so hard to have to try to fight the way of the universe constantly. And then it becomes a fight to try to do those things that I know will help me achieve what I want, and I feel like I’m hopeless and have no will power, and it’s out of my control once again. Also I feel like I want to do those things that sabotage me (like eating chocolate everyday) and start to feel resentful that I can’t or shouldn’t be doing them, which causes an internal conflict because at the end of the day I want to eat healthily but also at the same time want to eat the chocolate every day.
So back to my journal entry, I had felt bad about asking for help as it feels selfish and greedy. So I asked for guidance on that thought too.
As I woke this morning, I had thought in my head about how I want to eat healthy, nurturing and nutritious foods. I can’t remember the exact words but the word ‘want’ was emphasised in my mind.
I realised there was a significance to this, and so I wrote about it in my journal. I realised that it’s important for me to identify what it is that I want. What does my body and my soul and my inner person really want? So when I ask myself this, I know that I WANT to eat nurturing and nutritious foods, and that I DON’T want to be eating lots of refined sugars and processed foods. I feel empowered by the knowledge of what I want and no longer feel the inner struggle and the thoughts of hopelessness.
I know now the importance of pinpointing what it is that I want. Of knowing what my true wants are.
I believe I know this knowledge thanks to my guides, that they sowed the seed of the thought for when I woke up.
Thank you, as always. And thank you for proving to me that it is ok to ask for help.