I am launching this blog today, making it public after a long time of keeping it private. It’s a personal blog about my self-discovery.
Quite some time ago I started the practice of journal writing which I found to be tremendously helpful in both finding out about who-I-am, and also in being in touch with an inner guidance. I have read many books on spirituality and divine guidance (I guess you can call them spiritually focussed self-help books). During my journey I’ve been coming across ideas, methods, thoughts etc which have really helped me, and I wonder if they will help someone else out there too in the same way they have for me. This thought was the beginning of making the decision to write the blog.
It has always meant to be a public blog; however I’ve never felt ready…. I have been incubating it for quite some time now. I guess I always felt I had to have the About Me and About This Blog sections written so I could have the blog complete before making it public. Also, I felt that I had to have some mode of consistency to my posts, (at this stage they are just random posts that I’ve managed to feel motivated to write, however there’s so many things I have wanted to write about and include in order to really get across my message). But if I wait for that to happen, then it will never come to life. So instead I am going to ‘just get it done’.
My lesson during the last couple of weeks has been learning to not give a fuck about what other people are thinking. So why worry about whether the blog is any good, or if it makes any sense, if it’s well written, or if it’s logical? Who cares? I am just expressing myself and I am happy for this to be a work in progress. (Besides, it probably won’t even be read by anyone!!)
As today is when I make this blog live, I consider it to be the birth date. It was a few days ago that I made the ‘fuck it, I’m just going to launch it’ decision, and I thought that the 1st December would be a nice date to start as it’s the first of the month, and the first day of a new season (Summer for us in Australia). I then looked at the numerology of 1/12/2017 and it’s a 5. I was really excited about this, as I’ve always identified 5/blue with expression and creativity which is perfect for a blog where I’m learning to express myself in a new creative medium. So I made the decision, the 1st of December it would be.
Though after a while the idea of waiting until Sunday 3rd December came to me, as I would have the weekend to spend time finalising bits and pieces. I looked at the numerology and calculated 3/12/2017 to be 7/purple. Wow I thought, this is relevant too, as for me purple/7 represents spirituality and looking within and soul-searching; which is all so relevant to the purpose of this blog!
Yet I was still attracted to the idea of blue/5, so I was in a quandary about which date to use. (yes, I know, it seems silly the little things that I worry about…..). However then throughout the night of 30th and the day of the 1st, whenever I thought about it, it would seem that my eyes just happened to be looking in the direction of purple things. One time it was 3 or 4 purple things in a row that my eyes fell upon. I took this as a sign and changed my decision to launch the blog on the 3rd December.
Thinking more about 5/blue, I realised that the numerology for both names Heal My Soul and Heal My Soul Blog calculate to 5, so it feels right to launch it on a birthdate of 7, so at the same time I have both the vibrations of 5/blue (expression and creativity) and 7/purple (spirituality and going within).
Taking note of these little synchronistic things, and of colours and numbers, probably seems really ridiculous to a lot of people, but somehow it just feels right to me to follow this trail.
Another coincidental aspect of my blog which makes me smile is the initials of both the blog and my name. When I write about my blog in my journal, I tend to shorten it to HMS, which I know is the same anagram for the Royal Navy ships, ie Her Majesty’s Ship. It also makes me think of OHMS (On Her Majesty’s Service). The other thing is that the initials for Emily Rose (which is my pen name for my blog, btw, not my real name) are ER – which are the Queen’s initials. (Queen Elizabeth is our royal Head of State in Australia). I really like this aspect as I can liken it to me being the queen of my world, and the blog is like my ship, a creative vessel. Whenever I start to worry about whether the name of the blog is the right one, I just think of HMS and ER and I then don’t feel a need to consider changing it anymore. (yes, I know, once again I worry about the minutest detail…)
If you’re still reading this piece… consider reading the About Me page and through the existing posts to get a feel of what the blog is going to be like. Although the existing posts have been sporadic and without logical continuous flow, I’m now aiming to post every fortnight (we’ll see if I manage to do so; I’m a self-declared procrastinator – that’s why I have to set myself a plan to stick to otherwise they won’t get done).
A note about the photo: So far on this blog and in my social media posts I have used photos that I have taken, however I really wanted to have one with purple in it for this post so I searched for free photos that I could use. This one is by Adrianna Calvo from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/nature-sky-bird-animals-21261/